Thursday, November 16, 2023

Then just don't do it.

 

 It was supposed to be very cold again today, but surprisingly it was warm and mild.
It was such a morning, but I had a bad dream and couldn't sleep well.
It was such a bad dream that I wanted to forget it as soon as possible, but on the contrary, it was so bad that I decided to leave it as a sign from God.

What was the dream about?
I entered my room at work, where I was in a top position, and there were several people preparing to demonstrate a large machine in a not very large room.
Also, at my desk, which I usually use, there was a junior colleague, who had quit a few years before, sitting there with a dirty look on his face.
Immediately angry, I moved him out of the way and put my things on my desk, but I could hear the sounds of work behind my back.
I was angry that something was being done in my lab over which I had no control, and my frustration only grew.
He left the room and went to the next room to ask the classroom staff why such a demonstration was being conducted without his permission, but they all clammed up and refused to answer.
When she returned to the room where the machine was located, she found the junior student in question happily tinkering with it.
I told him to stop, kicked him out of the room, and told the contractor to bring the machine back to the office as soon as possible.

  I greeted him and said, "Sensei, it's been a while.

I greeted him and told him that I had been in this situation and had been complaining about it for a while,

  I was told, "That's the way it is.

I was told, "That's the way it is.
Then I went back to the room and got the person in charge of the contractor,

  "Why don't you tell us how this happened?

I asked him, "Why are you being so harsh?

  He said, "Why do you have to be so hard on me?
  You're joking, you and I have nothing to do with each other, and I don't deserve to be treated that way.

And he was angry with me.
And then,

  I'd said too much. Everything that was wrong with me came out.

I woke up and realized that I had said too much and all my bad points had come out.


This dream was so real and it was such a shock to me because the worst thing I did was so real that I felt like I would actually do it or I had done it many times before somewhere else.
Jealousy, short temper, lack of self-esteem and inferiority complexes, and all the things I usually hate about myself came rushing back at me.


I thought I would just keep it to myself because I would forget about it eventually, but I couldn't take it anymore and told my wife about it before I went out.

I couldn't take it anymore, so I told my wife about it before I left the house.
If you can figure it out, you don't have to do it.
Good for you.

She said,

Also, don't use "those people" when looking down on other people.

I was about to have a bad dream.
It was about to end up as a bad dream, but my wife's words saved me.


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